Monday, January 5, 2009

Why I will not be giving away a Wii

Today is a weird day. I waved goodbye to the last of my house guests this morning, leaving me alone for the first time in two weeks. After near fourteen days of gabbing non-stop in English, of cooking meals together, of watching youtube videos together, and of sharing late-night conversations in bed after the lights are out, the house suddenly feels a bit empty. I feel lost, like I don't remember how to entertain myself anymore, I can't remember how to speak French, and I don't know how to blog anymore. It was a good vacation, but coming down is always brutal.

On the other hand, today is a good day. It is an exciting day here at Diary of Why headquarters, and the reason for that is a number. I'll give you a hint- it's a positive integer that falls between 199 and 201 and it rhymes with 200th blog post!!!!!!!!! And in the interest of celebrating small and insignificant milestones, I thought, Hey, why not celebrate this small and insignificant milestone??? 200 posts ago today the Diary of Why was born, back when I was a lonely, single, impoverished grad student, with dreams of one day becoming a lonely, single, impoverished English language assistant glimmering distant on the horizon. Yes, in 200 posts so much can change, or nothing at all, and over here it's kind of a mixed bag, really. I'm a little older, hopefully a little wiser, I put my eye cream on every night and my moisturizer with UV protection on every morning. I'm still looking for someone, but I'm a little less hopeful about finding him. Though by now I should be immune to it, I do still get hurt, but now I'm a little less surprised when it happens. Becoming older and wiser and more life-hardened isn't all doom and gloom though
(because it really is starting to sound dire over here). On the plus side, I don't take things for granted anymore. I value the friendships I have made and maintained through the years, and I am grateful that I can live in a country that I love, for whatever length of time, that I can travel. I take pleasure in the small things, in the briefest of interactions, in that glimmer of a connection with someone else, in walking the streets in the cold air with other people who are doing the same. And, perhaps most importantly, I know what I want now. In a guy, in a relationship, for myself and for my future, for my life. And if I haven't yet the slightest clue how to go about getting these things, I have to hope that recognizing them is at least half the battle.

I hope you will join me as I alternately wallow in this post-holiday letdown and rejoice in celebration of small victories. And what better way to do that, I think, than a contest? And while I would love to offer prizes like a pair of round-trip plane tickets to France!!! or a new Wii!!!, let's be honest here; if I could afford those things I'd be at home right now hanging out with my family and friends and playing tennis on my new Wii. Instead I offer you my humble gifts, or the winner's choice of the following:

- an opportunity to guest post on the Diary of Why
- a guest post written by me, to be posted on your blog

Or in the absence of a blog or desire to do my dirty work for me, I offer the following options:
- one truth: you ask me one question which I am obligated to answer truthfully and publicly

Or, alternatively:
- one dare: you dare me to do anything you want, which I am required to follow through and report back on, with the condition that it is not illegal or permanently emotionally scarring

And who needs a Wii when my potential public humiliation is at stake, right? All you have to do to enter is leave a comment. Tell me anything: where you live, your middle name, what you had for lunch today. Enter by...oh, say, 12:00 P.M. Thursday, EST. (Though at the moment my physical presence is Central European, my blog is and always will be Eastern Standard). Winner to be chosen by random number generator, ink-a-bink, or throwing darts at the computer screen (whichever feels right at the moment).

Good luck!

17 comments:

  1. my middle name is Aurelie and I think you are so right about how plus ca change, plus c'est la meme chose-- but writing it down somehow give us something to reflect upon, non?

    congratulations on your 200th post!

    now go eat a FRESH croissant (still warm) for me!

    bisous, bluepoppy

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  2. Yay for your 200th post!! I always forget to check when my anniversaries are, but I should get up on that.
    Where I live - Hollywood, CA
    Middle name - Miriam
    Lunch today - I haven't eaten it yet, but it will be the meatball soup I made last night. Yum!

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  3. Does eating a Quarter Pounder from a less than desirable restaurant mean that I am now a quarter of a pound fatter?

    Happy 200th post!!

    Louise

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  4. Seattle, Lynn, PB&J. Borrrrrinnng.

    200 posts later and I'm still amused. Thanks for helping me test my webcam the other day, even with friends there with you. Smooches!

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  5. Congrats on 200 posts! My middle name is Kathleen and I ate a turkey melt for lunch. And I'd love it if you wrote a guest post on my blog.

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  6. aww rach, what a super post.

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  7. I would be hard pressed to come up with a dare that you would not disqualify as "permanently emotionally scarring." even still, you should give me the chance. I might make you a guest post as a belated xmas present.
    hugs! e*

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  8. Alright, let's see - Paris, Ann and I haven't eaten lunch yet since I just got up.

    We should meet up for a coffee sometime this week (cuz speaking more English and less French is *exactly* what you need, lol)!

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  9. my sister and i are challenging our blog friends to a ten minute tidy. which can be taking literally, as in tidy a drawer, or yourself, either physically or just plain head upkeep. trying to move forward with our lives in 2009 with the small things. since the big things appear only to be bills. aghghhh.

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  10. Congratulations on 200! My middle name is Matthew, and it's too early for lunch here.

    Also, Talia shouldn't get two entries for her two identical posts. (Nice try though, Tal)

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  11. Ksam - My middle name is Ann too! I would love to meet up for a coffee this week. Let's do it!

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  12. Congrats on your 200th post. I enjoy your voice.

    For the record, I live in Paris, my middle name is Laura, and I ate lunch at an international potluck that included yucca root.

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  13. Hmmm, Paris, Marie, and an egg sandwich...

    I dare you to drink two rhum rhums this Friday with the blog girls. If you're really crazy you'll drink three. But you might not live to tell about it.

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  14. I have to say, I am loving getting to know you all a bit better via your comments, and seeing some new blogs that I haven't visited before. Keep 'em coming!

    Evolutionary- I accept your dare. (Thankfully they're called rhum rhums and not vodka vodkas, or I would have had to decline). Two sounds almost too easy, though something tells me I may feel differently after...

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  15. I think I'm too late to enter your contest (being back in the homeland and all) but I just wanted to comment on how beautifully written your blog was and how similar I feel about my own life (minus the lack of a man...I'm married, but sometimes I wish I were still single!)

    In the event that I didn't miss the contest (I suck at time zone calculations), my answers are: suburb of Paris, Marie, fruit salad!

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  16. ooh, i've been without internet (in sunny, warm cozumel mexico) and just saw this.. congrats rach! i'll email you tomorrow when i get home about spain. besos, laverne

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